The Fear of really Going for it by Osho
Q: We are trying to make an effort but the effort seems to be half-hearted, so how to make it whole-hearted?
It is so because you go on withholding yourself. If you are jumping, dancing, screaming, you are not moving totally in it because of some fear – that fear creates the division.
You are afraid that if you move totally in it, it may not be possible for you to come back. That fear…. If you express your madness whole-heartedly the fear is there: you may not be able to come back from that madness. The madness may take over, may possess you. This fear creates a division. The major part stands in control, and only the minor part is allowed to move; that movement becomes false because then it is just imposed. The major part is in control.
Lose control, and don't be afraid. Fear is the barrier, and the division comes through fear. Then you go on protecting yourself and, at the same time, allowing. These are contradictory, and because of this contradiction your effort is wasted. Energy is dissipated because you are fighting within yourself: one part expressing, one part controlling. You are contradictory.
You are fighting: this inner fight your energy is wasted. Either move totally or don't move.
Decide: If I am going to do it then I will get involved totally; otherwise I am not going to. But remain whole….
Once you know, when you let go totally, the bliss of it, the ecstasy of it – even for a single moment – that total let-go will allow you to have a glimpse of the real.
That glimpse will become the foundation, and you will never be afraid again. And once you have moved to the very hell, to the very madness and you come back again, for the first time you are in control. Never before…. Once you have gone to the very roots of your being and have returned, now you are in control; now you are not afraid.
You are not going to lose anything except your madness.
Man has nothing to lose except his chains, except his slavery, except his bondage, except his misery and hell. You have nothing to lose – don't be afraid! What have you got to lose? A naked man afraid of losing his clothes?
What have you got to lose? Move whole-heartedly. Once you move, then there will be no problem. Once you have experienced, once you have tasted the freedom, the ecstasy that comes when you are in a total let go, the fear will disappear forever. Only through freedom does fear disappear and freedom can come only to the man who is whole…not divided, not divided in fragments.
Osho, "The New Alchemy: To Turn You On"